One day i'll have the courage to stand and fight.

I'm obsessed with Pirates of the Caribbean. Ask Grace. It's our tradition to watch at least one of them when we are together. It's also our tradition to try and hold our breath through the whole underwater scene in At Worlds End, but that's rather irrelevant.

What's relevant is Captain Jack Sparrow, and one of his most famous lines-

"We must fight... to run away!" -Captain Jack Sparrow (At Worlds End)

I adore that, because it starts out really dramatic and has a lot of courage and than.... BAM! Scared Jack  Sparrow. Love it.
But it has a really good point. Are you braver when you fight, or when you run away? Most say when you fight. I just laugh and say I'd be the person that's running away, screaming at the top of their lungs.

"If you define cowardice as running away at the first sign of danger, screaming and tripping and begging for mercy, than yes, mister brave man, i guess i am a coward."- Jack Handey

Yup, that's me!

But what i think the best description of courage is being willing to go into a dangerous situation, knowing the consequences, the possibilities, everything. Being willing to put your life on the line simply for your beliefs, for your family's safety, for your rights.

It may be misplaced courage, but it's courage none the less. Don't get me wrong, I'm not condoning war. Far from it. I'm scared to death of it. I just think the men and women that fight are pretty brave.

Oh my gosh, I'm going mad about this. Seriously, descending into utter madness. And it's only December? What happens come April? Why is it, everything that upsets my life happens in April? Urgh....

But there is one bit of courage i have; that I'm proud of. That i can stand on a floor in front of hundreds of people, and not be scared. I'm terrified, yeah, but I'm not scared. I'm not scared of it. I adore it, love it more than anything i ever have in my life. (Castle might be a close second.) I'm just terrified of my mistakes. Yet, i have to courage to trust myself and just go.

So what's courage? For me- Running away screaming. For others- Standing and fighting.
One day I'll stand and fight.

<3 Taylor Elaine